It feels nice to get that off of my chest. I’m not quite so sure what will happen next. I saw it more of a big deal than he did I guess, which makes me only feel more like shit.. but I’m happy. I’m happy I told him I liked him. I’m happy I’m not upset or crying. I’m happy things are falling into place the way they should be. It’s only been an hour and nothing drastic has happened. I guess that’s the way life works.
I don’t see myself not having him involved in my life when I’m like 50 which is what’s more upsetting than him not liking me back, but as for right now.. I really don’t even feel a friendship between the two of us.
